the not-so-pitiful life

in case there’s anyone out there sobbing for me, seeing that i am leading such a screwed up and miserable life

(btw, my pay hasn’t come in yet. supposed to be in today)

there has been happy events happening!

for example, i was able to watch mayday concert vcd in my living room, which means on the tv instead of a stupid monitor. and i blasted the volume as loud as i wanted to, since there wasn’t anyone at home.

and, i had malaysian supper on sunday.

in compensation for my family dumping me after sending me to ubi for my driving lesson.

and, i had a happy day on saturday during a gathering.

yes, it was the first time in weeks i laughed and laughed. and talked and talked.

about things other than work.

see? life can be good sometimes.

but it’ll be better if my pay comes in.

if i don’t get it by tomorrow, my agent’s gonna get it.

cos she cheated me of my alternate saturdays.

work woes

i hate to whine about working life here again, but this is MY blog.

MY territory.

i can do ANYTHING i want to.

*smirks*

ay least blogging makes me feel slightly happier.

was so angry just now i couldn’t eat dinner at all.

i’ve never EVER been set up by people and landed myself in deep shit just because of some sneaky idiot’s ambush.

and worst thing is,

it wasn’t totally my fault!

*caution: content may be confusing at times due to unstable emotions*

the 1st thing:

how the heck was i to know that the employees of the damn company were supposed to hand in death certificate of whoever died along with the leave application form when they apply for compassionate leave?

well, my in charge certainly didn’t tell me.

and whenever i ask her things, she pretends to smile but sometimes grumbles in audible volume about how nobody taught her anything and she learnt everything by herself.

well, well, am I a permament staff? NO!

am i paid as well as her? NO!

do i have as much time as her to learn? NO! by the time i figure everything myself, i’ll be saying goodbye to them liao.

anyway, she was extremely horrified to discover that i handed in the compassionate leave application form without the death certificate.

so she called the applicant, and found out that he wasn’t even intending to apply for compassionate leave.

(is it my fault again when employees don’t understand what is compassionate leave?)

then she threw up a pretty big fuss.

she didn’t scold me in loud volumes.

but she kept saying “you should have checked the form…..blah blah blah”

i should have? when i didn’t even know? when she shows me her moods whenever i ask her questions?

since the form was already handed in to the finance dept, she had to retrieve it.

and inform the bosses.

so my dept head scolded her through email. or something like that lah.

then she asked another colleague M(whom she told me to be wary of) to help her in the reply to the email.

and while they were discussing about it, she told this colleague M,”i was here on wednesday and she didn’t even ask me!”

*GRRRRRRRRRR*

ok, for this i assume 40% of the fault.

2nd incident:

last beautiful saturday, i was on duty with colleague M.

2 technicians came up to submit their medical claims.

1 of them genuinely forgot the procedures.

so he consulted colleague M.

colleague M told him some stuff which i didn’t hear, cos i wasn’t included in the conversation.

then, when they handed in the medical claims, i asked technician-blur where was the medical leave form.

he was as confused as i was, so he asked technician-clear for help.

technician-clear didn’t tell him anything about the medical leave form.

and they left soon after without me realizing it.

so i turned to colleague M and asked, “i thought they have to submit their medical leave forms along with their medical claims?”

colleague M answered, “no, they have to wait for the medical claims to be circulated back first”. (let this be point 1)

so i believed her. and the technicians.

since they have been there longer than 2 weeks.

today, to the horror of my in charge (again), she discovered that the medical claims were handed in but not the medical leave forms.

so she interrogated me on what the heck happened.

this time, i could tell her it wasn’t entirely my fault cos i double-checked with the technicians liao.

because of sensitive office politics, i could only say that SOMEONE mentioned point 1.

so, the in charge assumed that the technicians were bullying me (not true, they’re really nice people), called them up, and SCOLDED them.

then, technician-blur told my in charge that colleague M told him the wrong thing.

then colleague M denied it and said he heard wrongly.

(colleague M and technician-blur are on pretty good terms, since technician-blur always drives her home along the way)

so technician-blur said never mind, can subtract from his annual leave instead to save everyone from all the trouble.

after which, my in charge showed her temper to everyone in the office for the nth time today.

and i really hate it when she does that, cos who in the office doesn’t get bad days, huh?

who doesn’t have tempers?

does that give her the right to behave like a 5 year old and show everyone she’s in a really bad mood?

and what’s worse is, when i ask her questions when she’s in a bad mood, she will always turn towards me and flash me a happy smile.

how fake and pretentious can she get.

or when she’s in a bad mood and she answers calls, she’ll be in this super-high and chirpy tone. then when she bangs the phone down, she’ll start grumbling loudly about the poor soul who was on the phone.

at this time, colleague M asked me in low volume, “did i really tell them that?”

*SLAPS HER, throws her against the wall, dumps a pail of water on her and ask her to do some self-reflection*

that bitch.

don’t tell me she can’t remember what she said.

since this was about procedures, either she was right or she was wrong. no gray areas.

she was simply testing me to see if i remembered things, if i’m not wrong.

so, i kana big trouble 2nd time today.

and indirectly got some others into trouble.

i guess if i see the technicians tmr i’ll apologise to them, even if it’s not my fault.

since they’re pretty innocent too when it comes to whose fault, and besides, i don’t wanna them to think i’m saboh-ing them.

or worse, stabbing them in the back.

so you see, my office is full of ambushes.

whenever my in charge realises she has forgotten to tell me something (like the compassionate leave thingy), she’ll pretend that i was the one who forgot about it, or that i should have asked earlier, or that she’s doing me a big favour by telling me.

and when i ask other people, either they know nuts about what i’m supposed to do, or of course, there’s always colleague M on the lookout for me.

one and a half months more to go.

i’m starting my countdown, baby.