gotta catch my breath

man, i can’t believe i haven’t updated for 9 long days. during this period when i was behaving like a lunatic under stress, i had lots of comments about many things. about the guy who tried to save his shoes but lost his life, about mediacorp, about channelnewsasia, but since all these are stale thoughts, i shall not comment anymore.

and to people like liuhwen who congratulated me for passing my driving test and in the next breath asked me to inform them whenever i hit the roads, thanks for your concern but no, i haven’t touched the steering wheels of any car ever since i’ve passed. my papa drives an auto car and i have no guts to drive anything but a manual car. moreover, i’m paranoid of destroying anybody’s car. therefore, no driving for the time being, folks.

now, the rest of the stuff is gonna be boring. very, very boring. i didn’t wanna blog about it cos it bores me too. but then it serves as a reminder to myself when i reread it. yes, i do reread my entries cos a diary is meant to be reread, although i won’t call this a diary. i don’t like the idea of a diary. yeah, anyway:

move on, move one! that’s what i’ve been trying to tell myself after a teeny weeny bit of self reflection these few days. itz just the grand old idea of group dynamics driving me crazy. i have, or should i say i had (since i do not intend to work in the same project groups as him in future) this groupmate….ok let me start from the beginning in case i start to confuse people.

you see, i was working on this project whereby we have to intereview a MNC regarding channel management. never mind if you don’t know what’s that. yeah anyway, part of the group was damn worried about not getting an interview with anybody, since the possibility of a MNC granting an interview to a couple of undergraduates was very, very remote. and this guy DID NOT offer any help at all. in fact, he did not even bother to ask about our progress in getting interviews. we suspected he was buried deep in the individual assignments, which we all had to complete as well.

then, after we managed to get an interview from a pharmaceutical company, we decided to focus on three particular products. despite having repeated myself a couple of times and despite the fact that the information about the products could easily be found on the amazing world wide web, he had the cheek to ask us what was each of the products for just 2 hours before the presentation. i cannot comprehend why he just refuses to move those fat fingers of his to direct his mouse to the address area on the internet net explorer and key in http://www.wyeth.com. i simply do not understand.

worst still, we asked him to check out the prices of certain products in one of the pharmacy chain stores in jurong point, which was very near to his place, and where he had to pass by on his way to school. this was made clear to him the night before. and i told him with a pissed off tone that he could forget about coming for the presentation the next day if he failed to obtain the prices. before he reached school, he called us to tell us a range of prices, which was totally off. well, well.

can you believe the stupidity and laziness of people? and their reliance on others? and their selfishness? i swear i’ll never ever get into the same group as him again, unless some autocratic tutor decrees so. our group has banned him too. therefore we decided to keep our timetable next semester a secret from him. he managed to get the same timetable as us this semester cos he approached one of my friends. i’ll make sure i tell her never, ever tell him our timetable. even if he does get into the same class as him, i’ll shoot him down with sarcastic remarks if he approaches us for group projects. i haven’t been sarcastic for a long time, and it’s time to hone my skills again.

on the other hand, i’ve been quite pissed with one of my friends for the same sensitive issue. projects. but recently, she seemed to be enlightened and i think she’s finally figured out why i’ve been talking less to her. i cannot stand people who don’t contribute. and for the past week she’s been contributing a little more than her usual. in fact, i was contemplating keeping my timetable a secret from her too. but then again, she’s the libya president’s friend, and i’ve been in the same classes as her since year 1. it would be mean to do that. i’m actually happy she’s contributing now, cos i won’t have to do evil things by avoiding her and then feeling all guilty over it.

whining over. yesterday was the last of my projects and presentations this semester. i chalked up a grand total of more than 15 presentations this semester, important or not-so-important. and lots of projects, assignments and reports to boot. this crazy semester’s almost over. more than half of my grades have been decided. i guess if i put in some efforts for the exams i’ll do quite well, since most marketing tutors generously grade everybody with As and Bs for almost everything.

time to catch a breath and get my ass to my books. in fact, i’ve started doing some studying today. i’m really looking forward to the short break after exams. before my attachment.

new camping experience

i am almost camping in school. been staying back till 9pm+ for the whole week, and gonna most probably gonna stay past midnight next monday. all thanks to the super inefficient but nice lecturer.

no more blogging for the time being.

until i get past this crisis.

by the way, i’m in a good mood! cos mayday is coming in april for nkf (again) and heard that the sg concert is gonna be held in july / august. yumyum. plus plus plus

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!!

therefore i was a licensed road hazard w.e.f 17th march 2003 12.4opm.

 

and for these i am going to be happy. going to be happy. going to be happy. shall not sulk over schoolwork. happy. happy. happy. be happy for me too!

i am a genius!

got the china knowledge press attachment job, and i certainly hope that they’re not asking me to do the translating job. let’s hope moon’s comment comes true. she heartlessly told me,”don’t worry i don’t think they will want you for translation”. although that makes me feel better, but hey, it’s an outright insult! i AM bilingual!!! yeah to my horror the other girl who got in the same company isn’t exactly delighted with this news. i don’t know her very well, but erm dunno lah, let’s hope her non-enthusiasm doesn’t affect me.

and i just finished an executive summary on distribution channels in china yesterday. i think, by the time i graduate, either i’m gonna love china to bits or hate it to the core. seems that i’ve been doing lots of china-related stuff nowadays.

ack. i just discovered that this lousy pc is not equipped with realplayer. i downloaded some mayday stuff which requires realplayer. and no, i’m not a techno bum. i actually downloaded the installer for realplayer. to my utter disgust, my brother set the administrator thingy such that non-administrators (which includes my user account) are not allowed to install anything. bloody hell!! it’s a public computer, for goodness sake!!! he calls this his desktop, but hello, he already has a laptop. no doubt his laptop is a little old and cranky, but still how many desktops and laptops does he want huh!!! now that the computer in my room has died, my sister and i are using this computer only. i shall demand that he remove that stupid discriminating administrative power thingy tonight. or else there will be no peace and harmony in the family.

i just came across a classmate’s blog. i was in the same class as her last semester and had a slightly negative impression of her cos she seemed very dderh and quite act cute. but when i was reading her blog i realised her mum had passed away last april or may. and i got to knew her in july. from her blog i could tell that she was very close to her mum and grew up in a not-too-happy family. and i really felt ashamed to have thought negative thoughts about her. after all, to be able to stand up on her feet barely three months after her loved one died is a feat itself. maybe i shouldn’t be so harsh when commenting on people i don’t like at the first impression. cos like this gal, i passed a totally unfair and shallow verdict before even getting to know her.

i’ve always hated people who judge me based on appearance or based on my behaviour and speech at the first meeting. people who thinks i’m a lazy bum, a good-for-nothing, or worst, people who simply think that plain-looking people don’t deserve attention. but i have committed the same crime. i have judged people without knowing them. kind of contradicting, isn’t it? but it’s hard to change this habit i think. but i guess i’m improving. sort of, cos usually when i’m in school i don’t give a damn about strangers. unless they are my classmates and i have had attended the same class with them for a couple of lessons. it is only then i start gossiping about them and usually the people are disliked are commonly disliked by others. so far i haven’t seen anything good about them.

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i had two funny dreams last night. which were purely impossible dreams. the first one, i dreamt that my house was near a beach. as in a 5 minutes walk and i was enjoying life, going to the beach every evening or just to sun-tan. ah-ha.

5 minutes to the army camp and industrial area yes, but a beach?! maybe if the sea level continues to rise at an incredible speed. i would say, fat hope! by the way, since when did singapore had this kind of by-the-beach houses? except for the upcoming sentosa cove which caters to those multi millionaires. or maybe it did decades ago. but today? nah, i don’t think so. but it was a nice dream anyway, just the thought of it.

the second dream. *ahem* i dreamt that mayday would be here next friday for their concert tour. ridiculous. as if a concert can be arranged within so short a time, and as if it would be held on a friday. i think i’ve been thinking about their concert too much and hence, the dream. but well, dreams are meant to be unreal eh?

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look at the new shopping list i’ve come up with!! these are the stuff which i shall remind myself to save up for. some, i do agree are purely splurges and are for the vain factor. but most are pretty essential. hopefully by appearing in front of me everyday i’d be able to save up for them and get my hands on them soon.

 

yumyum.

 

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just kidding~don’t run away from me!!