gotta catch my breath

man, i can’t believe i haven’t updated for 9 long days. during this period when i was behaving like a lunatic under stress, i had lots of comments about many things. about the guy who tried to save his shoes but lost his life, about mediacorp, about channelnewsasia, but since all these are stale thoughts, i shall not comment anymore.

and to people like liuhwen who congratulated me for passing my driving test and in the next breath asked me to inform them whenever i hit the roads, thanks for your concern but no, i haven’t touched the steering wheels of any car ever since i’ve passed. my papa drives an auto car and i have no guts to drive anything but a manual car. moreover, i’m paranoid of destroying anybody’s car. therefore, no driving for the time being, folks.

now, the rest of the stuff is gonna be boring. very, very boring. i didn’t wanna blog about it cos it bores me too. but then it serves as a reminder to myself when i reread it. yes, i do reread my entries cos a diary is meant to be reread, although i won’t call this a diary. i don’t like the idea of a diary. yeah, anyway:

move on, move one! that’s what i’ve been trying to tell myself after a teeny weeny bit of self reflection these few days. itz just the grand old idea of group dynamics driving me crazy. i have, or should i say i had (since i do not intend to work in the same project groups as him in future) this groupmate….ok let me start from the beginning in case i start to confuse people.

you see, i was working on this project whereby we have to intereview a MNC regarding channel management. never mind if you don’t know what’s that. yeah anyway, part of the group was damn worried about not getting an interview with anybody, since the possibility of a MNC granting an interview to a couple of undergraduates was very, very remote. and this guy DID NOT offer any help at all. in fact, he did not even bother to ask about our progress in getting interviews. we suspected he was buried deep in the individual assignments, which we all had to complete as well.

then, after we managed to get an interview from a pharmaceutical company, we decided to focus on three particular products. despite having repeated myself a couple of times and despite the fact that the information about the products could easily be found on the amazing world wide web, he had the cheek to ask us what was each of the products for just 2 hours before the presentation. i cannot comprehend why he just refuses to move those fat fingers of his to direct his mouse to the address area on the internet net explorer and key in http://www.wyeth.com. i simply do not understand.

worst still, we asked him to check out the prices of certain products in one of the pharmacy chain stores in jurong point, which was very near to his place, and where he had to pass by on his way to school. this was made clear to him the night before. and i told him with a pissed off tone that he could forget about coming for the presentation the next day if he failed to obtain the prices. before he reached school, he called us to tell us a range of prices, which was totally off. well, well.

can you believe the stupidity and laziness of people? and their reliance on others? and their selfishness? i swear i’ll never ever get into the same group as him again, unless some autocratic tutor decrees so. our group has banned him too. therefore we decided to keep our timetable next semester a secret from him. he managed to get the same timetable as us this semester cos he approached one of my friends. i’ll make sure i tell her never, ever tell him our timetable. even if he does get into the same class as him, i’ll shoot him down with sarcastic remarks if he approaches us for group projects. i haven’t been sarcastic for a long time, and it’s time to hone my skills again.

on the other hand, i’ve been quite pissed with one of my friends for the same sensitive issue. projects. but recently, she seemed to be enlightened and i think she’s finally figured out why i’ve been talking less to her. i cannot stand people who don’t contribute. and for the past week she’s been contributing a little more than her usual. in fact, i was contemplating keeping my timetable a secret from her too. but then again, she’s the libya president’s friend, and i’ve been in the same classes as her since year 1. it would be mean to do that. i’m actually happy she’s contributing now, cos i won’t have to do evil things by avoiding her and then feeling all guilty over it.

whining over. yesterday was the last of my projects and presentations this semester. i chalked up a grand total of more than 15 presentations this semester, important or not-so-important. and lots of projects, assignments and reports to boot. this crazy semester’s almost over. more than half of my grades have been decided. i guess if i put in some efforts for the exams i’ll do quite well, since most marketing tutors generously grade everybody with As and Bs for almost everything.

time to catch a breath and get my ass to my books. in fact, i’ve started doing some studying today. i’m really looking forward to the short break after exams. before my attachment.