sometimes i think i may be worrying too much. but recently, i’ve been afraid of losing my friends. very, very afraid. i’m not a person who has a lot of friends, cos i find getting to know new friends is a very tiring chore. plus i don’t like talking to strangers and making small talk. which explains the reason why i’ve got less than 20 close friends in 21 years of my life.
but i’ve realised that whenever school starts, i get so busy with deadlines. my friends get busy too. sometimes i don’t even get to meet them more than twice a year. sadly, i think when i do meet up with friends whom i used to hang out with everyday, there’s lapses in conversation and awkard silences. i hate these moments, i really do.
i wish i had the time to meet up with my friends more often and i wish i had more conversation topics to chat about. but sometimes, it never work. i am drifting away from some friends, some very very close friends. and i fear that this is happening even when i’m still in school, what will happen when we all enter the working world?
10 years down the road, i may become a hermit with memories of friends, but with no one by my side.
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April 2, 2005 at 6:41 am
wenling
eh lian, no worries man, yours truly is another hermit-in-the-making. so we can go hang out at some hermit area 10 years down the road.
and it seems like the world’s supply of irresponsible and stupid jerks has increased. there’s one right here in atlanta with us. and he’s totally pissing me and my friend’s off.
once again, you’re not alone.
April 3, 2005 at 10:43 am
twinklestarlight
ah lian!!! u dun worry to ya! u always have me as a fren! dun worry… though i dun get to see u often but i always make an effort to read ur blog so tat at least i know wats happening in ur life k! hehe. *hugs* by the way, there is this damn irritating gal in my proj here in smu too! *winks*