am disappointed

i don’t understand how people can hurt others so easily without sparing a thought. especially when it’s those closest to them, who have brought them up for the past more than twenty years. it’s not just the financial support that we have to be grateful for, it’s the thoughts, the care and concern behind all those actions. why is it that people can be so blinded by short term frustrations and their own pride? there’s only a line the width of a strand of hair between pride and immaturity.

is it worth giving up the character that you were born with over small little matters, over people whom you’ve known for less than five years? if so, then what does the term family mean to you? especially so if you’ve once sworn you’d never be like this, and that you’ve reprimanded someone else for the exact same thing. why is it that people can change so much because of someone who’s not worth it?

i’m tired of hearing things like that. why can’t you give and take? we’ve taken so much, can’t you give a little back in return? is it too much to ask for? i’m tired, i’m disappointed, i don’t wanna be affected by this, i don’t wanna end up like you. i don’t wanna end up hurting people who’s the closest to me, who i have to thank for my presence and all the things i have.

yet i am in no position to give you a piece of my mind, because i’ve done them wrong too.