a happy 21st birthday to the dressed-glamourously-but-behaved-unglamourously-liuhwen!

it was an enjoyable party, with so many of the ex-classmates around. and all the catching up. man, i’m always lost.

and no, i didn’t have a good-face-day. and to punish me, MY MEMORY CARD/CAMERA/MEMORY CARD READER HAS GOBBLED UP ALL THE PICTURES!! to think that “wenling’s camera-guy” commented that it was a good camera. then it misbehaved. not the first time it has happened though.

i shall see if it works fine tomorrow. you never know with technology stuff.

so people, i’m sorry i can’t contribute photos and we’ll all have to rely on the unreliable liuhwen for photos.

oh yah, to those who hugged me tonight, sorry i smelt bad! hahaha, it’s the warm night lah….

on a more introspective note, i was thankful that i’m still a “swinging single” now.

i was walking home just now under the stars and began to realise that star-gazing would be something i wouldn’t know or want to share with someone else, even though it’s that special someone. it’s something so simple yet beautiful that i think i’ll appreciate it more without having to share my admiration for it with someone else.

it’s also therapeutic to spend time alone, and strangely, i seem to be enjoying my personal space more and more. such as going to the movies alone (so far i’ve only done it once), shopping, browsing bookstores, etc. etc. all by myself. it’s so much easier to think when i’m alone, i can see myself and others more clearly too. and i don’t have to explain myself or to care whether others agree or support my view.

i just need to listen to myself.

not to mention the freedom of being single. being able to go out with different groups of friends as and when i like it, having the time to just stay at home and watch dramatic and lame hongkong serials on weekends and spending family time while i can still enjoy it.

i don’t have to bother myself with all the nitty-gritty stuff that comes along with relationships, like making sure the other person is happy, feeling upset when something goes wrong, etc. to me, all these are a burden at this stage. a burden which i’m not able to carry on my back right now, especially after hearing the girls talking about their complicated stuff tonight.

aren’t all these blessings?

hmm, i think i shall continue to enjoy these blessings as much as i can while it lasts.

and to tracy, the day i have something to share, you bet i will! =)