lost, but found

it’s been a really long time since i updated and the main reasons are:1) i reset the router in an attempt to set up the wireless. i admit i’m hopeless at computer stuff. i have the passwords and everything, but i just can’t get it to work. not even when i connect it through ethernet.

2) i have been trying to get used to school stuff. the lecturers are darn serious about the readings. and my textbooks are gonna be imported from singapore. i have to zap textbooks and borrow from classmates (hopefully i can find some before the tutorials) to prepare for tutorials.

3) school internet is a pain-in-the-ass. they have surfing quotas (can you believe it?!) and by the time i manage to find a windows pc (so that i can msn), finish school housekeeping stuff on the very, very slow network, reply emails and am finally ready to log on, i can’t stay for long cos i have to rush home to prepare lunch / dinner. i don’t like to eat in school cos i fell in love with my own cooking.

JUST KIDDING.

it’s just weird eating lunch alone everyday. and it’s expensive too.

i realized how much i hate cooking for just myself. cos even when i cooked back at home (only when the parents were out gallivanting in some foreign land), i’d cook for the brother who eats like a horse. now i always overcook. there’s always so much veggies i end up eating at least four servings of veggies a day. and no, i haven’t lost weight yet.

so in an attempt to clear the food in my fridge faster and mostly out of goodwill, i cooked a dish for the adopted family. sharon (lady owner) was saying she felt guilty for me doing that cos i’m supposed to be studying hard and all that, and i went, “nah, i don’t do that kind of thing!”. as if the main reason i’m here is to cook and not study. but anyway she’s been taking really good care of me, giving me huge portions of fruits every now and then and buying everything extra i might need. so i thought it’ll be nice to give in return.

the drought here has subsided, i think. it’s been raining frequently for the past two weeks. with the gray clouds, a bit of blue skies and the beginning of sunset, this was what i saw:

a pretty blend of gray, blue and pink.

you thought i have a good view from my room eh?

just beyond my room, right at the bottom of the hill, they’re building a retirement village. i left singapore thinking it’ll be good to see the construction opposite my room at home all completed by the time i return. then i came here to see this:

beyond the perimeter of skimpy bamboos will be the ugly construction site. i must have an aura for renovation and moving. fortunately they’re in the end-stages of construction, so there’s not too much noise.

lastly, i was dressing for school the other day and i thought of a couple of years ago when i started school. remember my dressing in the first two years?

*shudders

and i do agree i’ve changed a lot since then. dressing, hair, everything.

i was wearing make-up every time i left the house, in a failed attempt to use up my make-up before i leave sg. now i don’t like seeing myself all dressed up and without make-up. so there, i’ve been wearing make-up to school too.

these are photos i took of myself a few weeks before i left sg, it’s kind of a milestone in my own timeline you know? guess i can do some compare-and-contrast thingy a few months down the road or something. or maybe not. where got money and time to shop for new stuff when i’m supposed to be erm, a poor student who studies hard?

but i’ve got new glasses though.

which, due to some screw-up, will only be ready on tuesday. will put up photos of myself in the new glasses! and because they cost a hell lot of money, i’ll be wearing them a lot more often!

oh yeah, i’ve been sleeping real early this week, when my brain isn’t ready to rest yet. so i’ve been dreaming a lot in the night. of family, friends, my old home, people i haven’t seen for ten million years, etc. etc. i guess i really miss home subconsciously, just that i’m currently happy enough not to notice it.