crossroad

 

it’s getting increasingly difficult to make decisions. when i decided to do this course, it was mostly based on impulse and it took me less than a week to make the decision. it was that kind of immature recklessness that urged me to take up the challenge.now that i’m exactly halfway through the course, i have no idea whether to stay in australia or to go back to singapore after graduation.

the thing about singapore is that i was born and bred there, my family and friends are there. and these mean a hell lot of things to me. but at the same time, because they mean so much to me, it’s sometimes less painful to distance myself slightly. but sadly, other than family and friends, shopping and food (the abundance of it 24/7) and the amazing availability of wireless hotspots which are free and faster than what i have now, there are no other reasons to keep me there.

on the other hand, living alone here in australia is so serene sometimes i forget that there’s other people in the world other than myself. it’s good cos i don’t have to consider others, don’t have to make sure i don’t piss them off, etc. etc. the people, the weather, the possibilities of travelling are all great. i’m enjoying my stay here so much that i don’t want it to become history. that one day i’d reminisce about my days in australia and not actually being here.

but i know i wouldn’t want to stay here if i’m to get a job in marketing. australia isn’t exactly a very happening place for marketing things, the action’s in (or moving to) asia i think. and with singapore being such a centre for regional offices and a platform to enter other asian markets, i’m definitely more attracted to the marketing industry over there. of course, it’s hell of a challenge getting a good marketing job in singapore.

tsk.

ironically, if i knew i had to make such a difficult decision someday, i don’t think i would have come here. not even for the fun and experience.