i was reading crime and punishment the other day and there was some quote from someone saying something like humans are always scared to try something new. or something like that, just let me find that again in a couple of days’ time.

coincidentally i think i found another side of me and i’m kinda frightened to know that it exists. it was already difficult making the comparatively easy choice to further studies instead of working like the rest of the world and now, i’ve found something deeper, darker and scarier.

i hate things which i can’t figure out. i hope it’s just a novelty and would go away soon. otherwise, i’ll be in deep shit for a really long time.

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i can’t stand rainy weather on working days. cos to use the free wireless network, i have to sit right under the air vents at the redemption booth. this position is almost the only place where the reception is reasonably strong and stable. but it’s no joke enduring the super strong wind for hours when the weather is already cool and windy. it bloody hell dries out my contact lensed eyes too.