someone was asking to take a look at my melbourne photographs but i declined, mainly because i didn’t take many. it’s been a long time since i had the chance to put my heart and soul into taking pictures. somehow i don’t like the look of photos i take when i’m not in the phototaking mood. the pictures usually turn out to be boring and flat.

there are some amazing photographers out there (professional, of course) who inject so much feeling inside their masterpieces it just connects you to them. i was browsing the touristy items in melbourne 360 when i saw this photo calendar. each and every picture was oozing loneliness and depression of a city soul. i couldn’t get through all the photos in the calendar cos it was too depressing. i thought it was a bit overwhelming but i still do like a healthy dose of feeling in photography.

then i came across this postcard selling at a rip curl store in melbourne city. it was a picture taken by sean scott. i had no idea who he was until i came home and googled his name. but there and then, i stood there for a long time, transfixed. i would have bought the postcard but one of the corners was slightly dog-eared. i can’t help but go for perfection when i buy pretty things.

with the lack of interest to pick up photography tips and skills i don’t think i’ll ever come up with a kickass masterpiece. the more i look at previous pictures i was happy with, the more flaws i see in those pictures. it’s not good to be too anal, eh?

anyway, i’m thinking of getting a new camera when i am comfortably employed. i love my lumix, but it has its limitations, especially its image quality. most of the time, i have to boost (a lot) the colours after i upload the images to my laptop. besides, i’m paranoid of my lumix breaking down on me, though it shows no signs of doing so. my lumix is probably around 5 years old? i don’t want to be left without a camera.

i want to go out there and take photos.

*whines