i’m getting all pensive again, over the same old issues, the same old thoughts.
i hate the way the same old things haunt my mind.
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it’s that time of the semester when stress starts to build up, but it seems to have started a lot earlier this semester. i go to bed thinking about assignments and having to wake up early to clear assignment preparations. then i would wake up countless times in the middle of the night, scaring myself awake. it’s either because i had a totally ridiculous but frightening nightmare or that i thought i had overslept and it was time to wake up and clear the damned work. sometimes i lie in bed drifting in and out of sleep while waiting for morning to come so that i can get out of bed in peace (yes, the irony) and begin work for the day.
this kind of sleeping pattern has been haunting me for a couple of years, mostly when i’m stressed or troubled. i wonder what happened to the sleeping bug in me that put me to sleep anytime, anywhere, for long stretches of time. gone were the days i could just lie down and sleep peacefully for 16 hours every other day.
say hi to the new owl.
for some unknown reason, there is no running water in the kitchen or bathroom. the house owner isn’t in so i can’t go bug them about things.
i can’t wash my empty thermos cup, wash the damned potato i was planning to cook for dinner, i can’t rinse the tomato or wash my hands while preparing dinner and i can’t wash dishes if i have dinner. i can’t pee either cos i wouldn’t be able to flush the toilet or wash my hands.
this is worse than those water rationing exercises they used to conduct when i was a kid. how come they don’t have anymore of those exercises ah? i thought it was pretty fun having to (watch my mum / brother) bring buckets to the void deck so that they can get some water for the entire day. or was it that the water supply was cut for about half a day and we would have to fill up buckets and basins with water before that? my memory’s a little fuzzy about this, was it just my imagination?
hmm. is this a real emergency now?
hello there, i’m now two hours ahead of Singapore! that’s a good thing cos one hour does make a difference. i hate it when the three hours’ time difference obstructs me from chatting online with people.
and like i know i should be calling my dad just to keep him updated on my life (otherwise he’ll nag and nag and nag) but i can only call him late at night. after a day of research articles my brain is reduced to pulp and i can’t stay awake for late night phone conversations. now that it’s daytime, i’m waiting for my cordless phone battery to charge. -_-||
one thing i hate about daylight savings is that i have to go around setting clocks and watches back by one hour. only ally is nice enough to set herself back by one hour, the rest of the gadgets and stuff have zero initiative, bah.
for the past two days my broadband connection has slowed to a trickle during daytime. by “trickle” i mean the download speed is now 10% of the usual speed and let’s not even talk about the time i take to load webpages or stream movies. the speed only starts to pick up after midnight.
i seriously thought the internet provider screwed up agan. i was cursing and swearing about the bills i pay and the service i get, etc. etc. until i saw the date. 31st march. hmm, end of the month. but it can’t be because i’ve exceeded the usage limit, right? i’ve never exceeded the limit before.
still, i did a check and what a genius i am, the limit has been exceeded indeed. fortunately i checked the option to slow down the internet speed instead of getting charged for extra usage when i hit the limit. otherwise i’d be forking out a neat sum of money and i’d never know.
it’s strange i exceeded the limit for daytime use cos hey, i wake up around noon everyday? i guess it’s probably because i tried listening to internet radio (for less than two hours in total!), cos i’ve been using the internet as much as i usually do.
oh well, i’m glad tomorrow is a fresh new day of april. usage limit’s gonna start on a clean new slate again!
four days of rest and i finally did some constructive things today. for most of the easter break, i was convincing myself to pick up the readings and notes. or watching crunchyroll. or sleeping. weather’s been really nice to sleep in. summer ended abruptly and the temperature just plunged over a couple of days.
oh well, at least i’ve done some readings and made some notes which will come in handy for the weekly quizzes and mid-semester quiz. the mid-semester quiz is gonna be held on a thursday, instead of during friday classtime. best thing is, the mid-semester quiz is gonna clash with another class and there’s at least 5 people affected. i wonder how and i wonder why.
i also did up a resume because if i don’t, i don’t think i ever will. come april i’ll be slogging away to meet deadlines and i wouldn’t be free until june. come june and july i’ll be busy packing up to leave this place (despite my reluctance) and besides, it’s a little difficult fighting with all the fresh grads in july.
so i sent my resume to P&G to apply for a couple of positions too. i don’t expect to be hired by P&G, but it’s worth a try. i guess i should start bombing the corporate world with my half-done resumes. half-done cos i don’t have access to my ‘A’ levels and ‘O’ levels certificates but i don’t think they’re that important anyway.
hmm, fingers crossed for the first proper job in my life.
freaking pissed with the house owner’s daughter. her parents are away for two weeks and each time they’re away, she brings some friends home. it’s all right if they hang out and make some noise, but the last time she brought them back, they were blasting music late in the night.
now, they’re screaming and screaming and screaming and screaming and screaming and screaming.
seriously, it pisses me off big time.
在東京鐵塔 第一次眺望
看燈火模仿 墜落的星光
我終於到達 但卻更悲傷
一個人完成 我們的夢想
你總說 時間還很多 你可以等我
以前我不懂得 未必明天 就有以後
想念是會呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你愛的歌會痛 看你的信會痛 連沈默也痛
遺憾是會呼吸的痛 它流在血液中來回滾動
後悔不貼心會痛 恨不懂你會痛 想見不能見最痛
沒看你臉上 張揚過哀傷
那是種多麼 寂寞的倔強
你拆了城牆 讓我去流浪
在原地等我 把自己捆綁
你沒說 你也會軟弱 需要倚賴我
我就裝不曉得 自由移動 自我地過
我發誓不再說謊了 多愛你就會抱你多緊的
我的微笑都假了 靈魂像飄浮著 你在就好了
我發誓不讓你等候 陪你做想做的無論什麼
我越來越像貝殼 怕心被人觸碰 你回來那就好了
能重來那就好了
i FINALLY figured out how to tune in to fm 93.3 over the Internet. before this there was some problems cos ally just couldn’t communicate with the damned thing. now everything’s running fine!
it’s been a really long time since i listened to the radio station and man, am i glad to listen to some music with commercials and human speech in between. yeah there’s loads of bubblegum pop on the radio station but heck lah, i’m connected to the world!
i have a craving for the crazy thunderstorms in the sunny island of singapore. yeah so i’ve heard there’s this bout of rain weather thanks to the la nino thingy.
it’s been so freaking hot here i can feel the sun burning my unprotected skin when i’m out there. even though it rained a couple of days ago, it was just a sissy thunderstorm. lots of strong winds and dark skies but the rainfall was pathetic.
so i want those fierce tropical thunderstorm when the rain just beats down heavily and goes on forever. even if it might rain every single day of the week and that pedestrians may get trapped in the damned rain. when i have to take the long way home cos the shortcut will be all muddy and slippery.
it must be because i was working at change alley during the monsoon season last year. i could get from place to place underground and somehow the rain just didn’t get to me.
it’s been a long time since i got drenched.
